The road ahead

okay well the christmas tree is down. How depressing really. I felt that I never really got to enjoy the Christmas season. I totally felt like I missed it this year. My husband and I are still trying to scrape by with money and still looking for some type of car to get to and from school. Homework is pilling up and deadlines are coming. I feel a little stress right now. I have to get through this last year. I have to. I cant wait to graduate and get on with my life. I often wonder what it will be like when I graduate. I have been going to school my whole life. What am I going to do with my self after.

I am looking forward to the changes but terrified to take this huge step in life. Someone told me today that it must feel great to know that your graduating so soon. But I said I have not felt that great yet still wondering when it will hit me.

I have been going through school for five years and still have about two semesters left. So close but I feel like its so far away. I am not one that gets A's on every assignment/ Class. I have had to take extra classes on the side plus allot of extra time spent in any assignment. I am constantly struggling to get through every class I take.

college was never been easy and I felt that I had to go through allot more crap than other people had to go through just to get a passing grade. I hope this all pays off one day! My piggy bank in life is not looking so good.

Car troubles thats my life

Okay so another year and new resolutions. My husband has often told me, "you make it a Good day." Now i decided to take that account this year and constantly tell my self those words. (as cheese as it is) I think this will help me think more positive and confidant about my self. So here we go.....

Wow so i wrote that a while ago make that three weeks ago. Today was the official first day of class for this semester in school. I was excited to start dancing again and learn more. I reminded my self to make it a good day.

My husband and I are going through some hard times claiming BK last year was one large thing we went through. My husband went through three jobs. We were no were near being financially stabled. Luckily enough my husband is back working for a company about 45 min away from home. Well now with school starting its been a little rough trying to get around with only one vehicle. We are out looking. Cant afford anything don't know what we are going to be able to do.

In the mean time my parents are letting us barrow an old honda accord 87 of theirs. I go to school for my first meeting then came home for a few hours to then go back out to start the car when the car wouldn't start (i think it is officially dead). Talk about trying to make you day a good day.

lets keep trying so for now I just have to laugh about it. I may just invest in making a Flintston Car. I hear their great on Gas!

TEst Test

Well its finals week and I am sure thousands of students feel the same way I do. I have taken 7 test and still have at least three more to go. I am in my last year of collage and ready to move on if they will let me. I struggle with taking tests and have often had to talk to teachers about helping me out in the class to pass. For the first time in my whole schooling life time i failed a class. I feel so stupid and Im sure i will beat my self up for the next few months over it. I worked so hard in this class. i had study groups, teaching others, hours on my own, and many other ways to cram all this stuff in my head. Some how i failed. I cant talk to a the teacher because he, "really cant help." wow I feel like scum and don't know if a whole tub of delicious chocolate ice cream will sooth me down.

I keep telling my self keep going and you will make. I think I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel just hope its not a train reck. So here I go another semester of pulling hair and tiers. wish me luck. I am really needing it!

My life

I am really just wanting to start this blog to jot down what I am thinking about and to just get things out of my head. You see I am married and very happy in my marriage but in every marriage you have struggles. You may have troubles with family and in any life situations you may have to face. This is my life and what I really think of it.